Today i drove a tiring 1.5 hours each way just to spend 30 minutes to have a chance to take photos of Salmon swimming upstream to spawn. At this time of year the salmon turns into this vibrant deep red as they are nearing the end of their lives. Against the odds of being preyed on by bears, fishermen, eagles and etc. they travel thousands and thousands of miles upstream against the strong current back to the fresh water ponds where they hatched to spawn. By this time they flesh is literally rotting and they have stopped feeding. This last act of spawning completes their life cycle and they die in the streams where they originated.
I was also here the previous weekend, however I came with a friend. She noted how one's life, simliar to the salmon is so hard. Basically it's a struggle, even at the point of death,,, its always a struggle, nothing is in your hands. I thought this to be a very deep and profound yet sad thought. I guess it's always a struggle because we try to attach ourselves to things and people in which we basically really have no control over.
We can to the best of our ability strive to have that sense of 'connectedness' however sometimes its our unattainable desires and wants that fuels the sense of loss, and struggle in our lives.
Does that mean we would be happier if we have no desires and dreams? Probably not, because that would mean that our hearts and souls are dead. It's only through dreams, ambitions, and goals that makes us feel alive. May be we need to focus on the journey rather than the end result itself.
Sorta like a road trip... When you are on a road trip the entire experience should be satisfying.... you should or at least in my case.. enjoy the drive, enjoy the music/singing in the car, and the scenery along the road side. In that way even though you may be disappointed with the destination at least you had fun while you were driving!
