My First Acrylic Painting after a 20 year hiatus.

The end results of a 'tormented artist'. Currently I feel that I have a huge surge in creativity. There are endless beautiful melodies in my head that i would like to write down and record, however it's still very painful to play the piano right now as it reminds me too much of Rachel. I do know that in time I will play the piano again... just hopefully by that time i won't lose the tunes that i have in my head. :-P

I've always been 'artsy fartsy' however it's only in times when i go through an intensely painful period will i have this need to want to express myself through art or music. Please don't be too concerned as from what you can see in this painting.. it's definitely not entirely sad. I view this stage in my life as a 'rebirth'. This will be a new phase in my life.... where i am now equipped with additional 'life tools' that i've just recently learned to help me deal with whatever obstacles I may encounter in the future.

I know and feel that i am getting better and better each day..it's currently autumn in Vancouver right now. During this time of year the leaves on the trees change into a variety of vibrant hues of orange, reds and yellows. This only lasts for a period of around two or three weeks so it's basically reminding me that time never stays still. Everyday on my way to work I will have a smile on my face while i look at all the beautiful colours of the leaves. With each morning I will notice that there will be less and less leaves on the trees. This is just a reminder that life is really too short. Regardless of what unpleasant experiences you may have.. life just goes on, just like the beautiful leaves on the branches... initially they are a vibrant green,then they turn yellow and then eventually evolving into its final stage of orange before falling off of the branches resulting into a brown colour on the grass. There is an impermanence to everything.

Whether they be happy or sad experiences they are only here for a temporary period of your life. Things are constantly changing, and evolving. When there are happy moments never take them for granted and if there are sad moments be glad that in time these unhappy experiences will too also evolve.